![]() ![]() Now he is directly challenging your limits. ![]() ![]() No blood, no marks visible when clothed, absolute respect for your safe word, absolute confidentiality, and no urine or faeces, including "ass to mouth" - even the Americanised vulgarity of the term offends your English ear. When you first started exploring your submissive side with him you specified this as one of your hard limits. It contains only the words, printed in his tight, small hand: "ATM tonight". Why on earth are you stopping to notice this? Do you now want to tease yourself further? Are you afraid? Or are you simply wanting to experience every sensation to its fullest and clearest? The card itself is incongruously pretty - a late-Impressionist painting, in heightened colours, of a bourgeois garden, its flowers oversaturated by the reproduction. Your hands, you notice, are shaking slightly. You slip to the loo and tear open the envelope in the semi-privacy of the cubicle. The text doesn't come until 3pm, by which time you are hardly able to concentrate at all on your work. It doesn't occur to you to open the envelope without permission, though he could never find out. Why do you get so pathetically needy when he plays with you like this? You're never normally the kind to wait, fluttering, for a man to contact you. At lunch you hoped for a text, and checked your e-mail more often than you could really excuse to yourself. You had pleasant butterflies in your stomach - mild but distinct - whenever you thought of it during the morning's dull meeting. It was this morning as he left for work that he gave you an envelope, telling you to not to open it until he gave you the order to do so. He genuinely thinks that you are going to do it this evening, and that you'll be doing it just because you have been told to. How could she do that? What did it taste like? Was it safe? The first time you saw it on a porn film you were fascinated but utterly repelled: a woman being deeply sodomised and then, when the man withdrew, spinning rapidly round as if eager, dropping to her knees and taking his glistening penis directly, deeply, apparently greedily into her mouth. You find it slightly hard to believe he even thinks you would consider doing this. ![]()
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